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all u can eat

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 21:30:27 +0100

i think chinese resturants that do an all you can eat for a set amount of money is fantastic i ate myself stupid last night and so did all my family we all had a great time togehther . so now christmas is over and my birthday is out the way its time to get back into a routine of hitting the gym and healthy eating is gonna start back up. did salsacise on friday which i really enjoyed and will do again. i am now married which we did in the glorious montego bay , jamaica . alls settled down with my childs dad even though i still hate him with a passion . but as ben is 11 i dont have to see or speak to him any more . i am positive that this year is gonna be better than the last 2 .
so finally today i weigh 12 stone so looking to lose a minimum of 3 pounds this week wish me luck.

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moon powerjavascript:b2evoInsertTag(b2evoCanvas, 4);

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 15:34:59 +0100

what a week it has been i m still having trouble with the ex but im not gonna bore you with that any more i have learnt to believe in karma so in the future he will have mega bad luck . Does the moon really have powers that can affect women , this week all the women i know have said they have done really clumsy things. on thursday i dropped a scuba diving mask and fins on my toe and broke it. On friday my sister in law fell down the stairs and on friday night my close friend fell over in a bar and didnt manage to put her hands out landed straigth on her head now is that just a coincedence or is it the power of the moon. Any more women out there that have been especially clumsy this week {more than usual anyway]?

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give me a break

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 22:07:24 +0100

w ell what another week of hell its been really missed my son last week it was only the 2nd week of a trial that were running with his wanker dad. i am hating it couldn t stop crying sunday , monday was in a right foul mood , then cheered up slightly tuesday when got him back. then at work PAT tester turned up at a really busy time [in a hairdressing salon] well he decided to move a full cupboard and broke the leg off then unplugged the steamline machine and then it decided it wasnt going to come back on. then one of the staff decided to tell me she was 5 months pregnant, i mean how could you not know. well amongst other personal things thats all i need . I am trying to be really positive about things and christmas well its hard when shit things keep happening to you. I came home tonight and there was a letter waiting for me from the CSA wanting me to sign to say my son sleeps there 9 days so he can get away with paying me less . well that didnt take long must have got on to them as soon as we got out of court.Well i just dont know how much more stress i can take before i end up in the nut house. Please i just need a break and for things to run smoothly for a while i have just had 5 years of shit i think i have suffered enough. But having a moan on here is good release . to know that people read it and have opions helps too.xxx

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dealing with it

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 12:19:21 +0100

its only this last week that i feel better about whats been going on. i mean when you feel that the whole world is against you , and when you think that you are getting to grips with one thing another comes and slaps you back down again.in my last blog you would have read about my ex but i didnt have time to expain every thing ,i just thought that writing things down would help me and stop me going quietly insane.In january an hour before we are due to set out on holiday a letter came saying that i had to go to court as my childs dad was wanting parental responsibilty. well apart from trying to be tricked into it a couple of years before ,this came as a huge shock to me i felt at the time my heart was being ripped out and i had a feeling he was trying to take my child off me,not knowing what P R was at the time and off to india for two weeks i went away in a right state also believing that there was something more to it, I mean why did he need to have P R now after all this time. Well i was right i went to court on the understanding that P R was reall nothing and he would be granted it but everything else would stay the same. my child was seeing his dad regually once a fortnight all weekend .Well when we got into court he then slapped me with a contact order aswell which he wanted to be put in place with no fleibility.I mean how can that be possible i have been nothing but fair with him for years i mean he saw us homeless and never paid maintenence for years , I think the only reason this is all happening is because the CSA have finally traced him ,Anyway my arguement was when you have children you need to be flexble, but the judge went in his favour and i was left having my heart wrenched out again.We had to go back to court to see how this was working , i mean how could it not we ve been doing the contact for years this way.It just means another day off work cancelling clients changing staff rotas, well when i got back to court i was hit again by another slap he now wants shared custody, which will mean he wont have to pay me any maintenece.Well i was fuming at this i am angry and upset at this . It really is not practical for the child as he doesnt live that close its 30 min away ,iknow its not that far but when your child has activities after school it can get a bit complicated.Well my child has been unhappy and confused he just wants to please both of us and stop all this mess cafcas have been involved . Just last week my child did a rota for the days he chooses to stay with his dad , well actually his dads wife as his dad will be at work most of the time this is the main reason i,m annoyed.Well i,m now dealing with it i am still not happy but i,m gonna see how it plans out we are giving it a two month trial and will be starting week 3 tommorrow.My brother gave me some good advice last week that i should make good use of the spare time i have so i had my first scuba diving lesson on thursday.For the last ten months i have been really depressed some days not wanted to even be alive.I feel let down and think this is just a power trip to him.Whats it gonna be next him wanting full custody and him taking me to the CSA.

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all or nothing

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 19:16:44 +0100

what is with men that they either want all or nothing to do with there kids. a friend of mine is really unhappy that the father of her children has nothing to do with them and mine is taking me to court for shared custody which i feel is a bad idea as it can cause a child to be unstable. as i think a child needs a set routine.

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Rights for fathers

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 19:07:14 +0100

I have been separated from my childs father for over 8 years now and i have been nothing but fair with. so why is it that he is being a complete shit? It all started last year when he thought he was clever and tried to trick me into giving him parental responsibilty, he said that he wanted to include him on his bupa private medical and that the only way he could do it was for me to go to court and sign a form saying i give him parental responsibility. Now as you dont know this man like i do few would say yes dads should have rights. well i lived with this man so i knew nothing is black and white with him and that there would be some motive behind it ,so i refused and then we had a big row.The reason i refused to let this man have PA was because he hasnt been a perfect dad far from it. This man was an abusive alcoholic who preffered getting pissed in the pub rather than spending time with his child. when my son was 2 i gave him an ultermatum either stop going to the pub or its over . Well he chose the pub , stayed in the house while my child and i had to go and live in a dirty hostel for 4 months.its only in the last couple of years that he s quit the drink that he s taken an interest in his son. Well my opinion is its too late, i have never stopped him going it was him that used to let his son down

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